Today I was a little depressed. I mean I really wanted to go out to dinner and I could not find one soul to go out with. I felt lonely and alone. And to have those two together is not a good combo.
Today, I thought about being single for the rest of my life. And that thought really scared me. I really wanted to cry. I need to make some changes. I’m not sure if I am afraid too or if I am just to stubborn too. I am holding on to something and I hope it’s not what I think it is.
I feel stuck in neutral and I can either propel forward or be pushed back. It’s a horrible predicament to be put in. It’s crazy but today really forced me to think about all of this.
Monday through Friday I have no time to think about my personal life. I’m lucky when I remember to pay my bills on time. But today when there was no work, no distractions, just the rain and my thoughts, reality hit.
I need to make some changes. I just don’t know how . . . .